You may have noticed that I’ve been absent from my blog for several months now. I’ve tried to write posts. I’ve set up my camera with the intention to create fun, artsy project tutorials, but not very often, and I just wasn’t able to share anything.
You may be wondering why….
Well, I’ve been immersed in a journey of self healing this year. Severely depressed, and in the throes of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, I began to realize that I’ll never love myself or feel content with my life if I’m scared, lonely, and constantly criticizing myself.
It was hard to admit that I need professional help. I had always told myself I was over my past traumas, but I never took the necessary steps towards true healing. I had a terrible habit of being very reflective and learning from my past, and at the same time actively disliking myself.
The story of how I found my therapist is quite serendipitous. Just one week before my 26th birthday I was at the store, and when I got back to my Jeep I noticed this turquoise rock under the tree right beside my divers door.
Now I see it was a vibrant gift from the universe. I started Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, and so far it’s been extremely transformative. I’m beginning to improve my self talk, and have gained strength and motivation to once again follow my dreams.
Something my therapist encouraged me to do is write a letter of love… to myself. So that’s what I did today, and I thought… Why not share it on my blog!
This might be a good exercise for you to do as well– write yourself love letter.
Be gentle with yourself. You’re doing the best you can.